Announcement Lang

February 20th, 2007 by ktribal

Announcement lang po:

May Multiply na ako. Sa lahat ng mga nangulit sa akin noon na magMultiply na rin, pwes, eto na ang araw nyo. Hehehe.

Inaupload ko na dun lahat ng aking photos. As in lahat. Pati yung may mga halikan at lahat lahat na. Hahaha.

So far naupload pa lang yung sa Kalai pics. Formal Dinner, Jedi Pics, etc. Check back next week siguro, mabilis naman magupload so baka matapos na lahat by then. Sana makadaan kayo at makapagcomment.

eto pala yung url:

http://kaybeeenji.multiply.com/

it’s read pala ay kaye-bee-enji. KB Enji. Basta. Hehehe

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UP Diliman, December 15 - a Christmas Report

December 15th, 2006 by ktribal

Ahh, December 15.

I spent half the day laying there in bed sleeping and dreaming , missed the overrated Oblation Run, remembered halfway through Hunchback of Notre Dame show tunes that today was the day the Board of Regents would make or break the future of all aspiring UP students with the proposed 1000pesos/unit tuition increase. To counter this, the USC spent half the last week campaigning for student support to join the December 15 (that’s today!) Barricade at Quezon Hall. The 1000/unit increase would of course, be approved only hours later, and there i was not worrying about it that much (sorry if that was very un-Iskolarly), but rather how i would spend the rest of the day with my friends - because yes, December 15 would also be the day of the ages old UP tradition of the Lantern Parade.

But in some absurd move, in my opinion to punish students for being so adamant about everything administration, UP Diliman’s chancellor called for the sudden cancellation of the celebration, citing safety issues. May bomb threat daw or something, whatever, the nerve of them. UP Students are not dumb. The news of this pending plug-pulling made me so indignant i almost joined the marching bands of protesters around the oval, but around that time a most wondrous thing happened. The parade started, albeit a bit too toned down. But i was so happy that a few colleges actually went through. Of course, the TOFI approval news would echo soon around this time, but the fact that many joined in defying the paranoid administration’s attempted murder of Lanterns proved that  we still got that old spirit present during the time of Marcos and every other hurdle.

Before this post becomes too critical and unhappy (which the day was not, really) let me now go to some bullet-styled highlights of the fun parts.

> Henna Tattoos - Ken and I got henna tattoos. I had mine on my arm, and what it is, i won’t tell you.

> Desperate Pleas for Sex - Not for me, of course, but it was still fun talking to somebody who desperately wants sex behind the College of Business Ad building. Hahaha. Pity.

> FFB’s Reunite - Tonyo and everyone else showed up and made the whole bunch happier.

> Horns were the fad of the night, almost everyone had glowing horns on top of their heads. I even had one. Yippee.

> The Lanterns - although it lacked in number, masaya pa rin. Kudos to Fine Arts and their Philgames themed Lanterns and to NCPAG’s bands playing Boom Tarat.

> College of Law - the tambayan of the night. Everyone made this their stop, we spent a  good deal of time here just talking and laughing and picture taking and Eli annoying the crap out of someone named Dan.

>  Mini Kontra Gapi helps us continue our last year’s tradition of dancing in the streets. Ang saya.

> The Variety show on AS Steps. Just when you thought it’s over, it isn’t!
Ken and the others (including me) staged a mini variety show complete with commercials and channel changes enough to power a laugh trip of more than an hour.

> Of course, wala na.

Lantern Parade this year has many areas of improvement, but i think we did just fine. It would have been better with more lanterns, more people (you know who i’m talking about) but yeah,

no denying this year’s Parade was fun. Now I’ll just get on to work on that countdown to 2007 blog piece or the Highlights of 2006 writeup and I’m all set.

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Some Short Works

December 14th, 2006 by ktribal

Some short works i decided to publish. Nothings special. They’re just me. Just shorter.

Raindrops

 

I stare at the floor and at
the puddle the raindrops make there.

Drip, drip, drip, they start.
Splash spalash, they continue.

 

As the rain wears on I ignore
the people around me and just stare. Hey there, Mister Puddle, how do you do? I
haven’t seen you in a long time.

 

The rain stops for a bit, and
the puddle allows me to look at myself in it. I see a face with buried eyes and
shut lips. But I smile. For some reason my face lights up with a true smile. The truth  always does.

 

In a moment the rain comes
again, it pounds. Tash, tash, tash, they go. And I cannot see myself anymore. It’s
okay Mister Puddle. Do what you have to do.

 

Why do you look anyway?

 

 

Peace

 

Give me peace Lord Give me
peace Lord Give me peace Lord Give me peace Lord Give me peace Lord Give me
peace Lord Give me peace Lord Give me peace Lord Give me peace Lord Give me
peace Lord Give me peace Lord Give me peace Lord Give me peace Lord Give me
peace Lord Give me peace Lord Give me peace Lord Give me peace Lord Give me
peace Lord Give me peace Lord Give me peace Lord Give me peace Lord

 

The View Out There

 

The
young prince sighs. Ignoring his tutor with a roll of his eyes, he parts the little
curtains and takes in everything he sees through the carriage window. The autumn-painted
oaks that line the forest road seem ablaze, like overgrown burning bush. To
strong winds the young prince cannot feel or hear the oaks give a few more of
their leaves and the leaves join the tempest that blow around the forest at
such times. The leaves, touched by fall, circle around and about outside like
embers, and for a moment the young prince remembers a time when he’d gotten
himself lost in this very wood, separated from his Father the King’s hunting
party.

He
remembered struggling to light a fire to last the night, and with fondness
recalls the memory of a small hungry fawn that had found its way to him.
Together the little creatures stayed close to one another, staring at the
embers and finally falling asleep on the dirt. When dawn had come and his
Father found him the fawn was nowhere in sight.

The
sight of two black dots from in between trees snapped the young prince back to
the present. A deer was looking at him, hard and sorry. It blinked, and when its
eyes returned there in them was a painful flair of insensitivity.

I am not of your world anymore.

Oh, but
how the prince would love to be. How he wanted to get lost in the woods again.
And be free, and be wild. But the deer does not hear his foolish heart, and off
it goes in a second, disappearing behind the brush.

You will never see me again.

For a long time the young prince fights
back the tears. Then, with a defeated sigh, he retreats behind the curtain once
again.

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RIP Benjamin

November 30th, 2006 by ktribal

He died and stayed there.

This happens over and over again, the passing of sun and moon unheeded by his memory - the day he planned to run away from home, the day he failed math, the day Barbie died, the days marked February 19, 2006 and the days that followed, the day he realized that Oh my God, he is not happy here.

Yes, he died many times.

There his self is, crying underground, for his deaths do not let him escape. Hell, the Catholics may have been right about Purgatory all along! Down there he interacts with gerbils of guilt and crawlies of temptation and he can only give in, for how else can this latest death be any different from the pain (even after a brief resurrection) he’s lived thus far?

The toxicity of the down-below’s pathetic nature poisons the grass above, the raw earth of his grave as barren as his hope for love.

The people up there notice the fruitlessness of the grass, something is wrong. Some just shrug, some pretend to express with limited eyes, some at most,take notice. But the corpse doesn’t hear the digging sounds, the almost insincere cries calling him to Live, live! He just says, sorry.Sorry, everyone, sorry.

Because down here he is surrounded by Sarah singing Angel, Krauss lullabies him with Slumber, My Darling, Benjamin Gibbard’s You Will Be Happy, Jason Wade addressing him with Everything. And he feels good feeling the songs all the people who mattered to him never bothered to sing to him. The voices of his Depression-themed playlist never stops loving him, post Salvation.

He can’t even read what the people he’s left behind wrote in his marker. Can’t hear the testimonies of the ones he loved, for the dead have no ears. Man, he wished some were good things, and he was pretty sure some were good - isn’t it that the good words of life and confidence come only when the one you’re talking to couldn’t hear it?

"Jack, I swear…"

 

The corpse’s accepted it since: his is an object of pity. A thoughtful wish registers in his numb consciousness, at least let them give me pity. A brief laugh there from his mouth and a tear part water, part hurt swims down his cheek.

Up there he is more alone than he could ever be. There was just one time, one time when everything had been different because he had been happy. But that time is over now, down here the feeling of alone’s still present, but at least he could be together with himself.

xxx

Rest In Peace, Benjamin
Even impossible it may seem
Rest in Peace, never forget
The wings of love even in death

2006

He believed in love above all else.

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Express Me

November 27th, 2006 by ktribal

I have been debating with myself about this for the last couple of days, and a closure is still on the way. 

The penwarrior inside of me has grown weary of my current state of literary stagnation. It has called upon me many, many times over the past weeks. One night i dreamt about a forest scene i had originally planned to write in my magnum-opus-still-on-hiatus fantasy novel. It was weird seeing Amir the Forest Witch summon her dragons, or those little pixie-fairy creations (i forgot what i called them, it started with the letter J) flitting over the flowers in the Garden of Circles. Weird, but to see the products of my then productive highschool imagination still breathing and slaying and casting spells in my head carried in itself a terrible satisfaction.

Many times (the latest was last night) too have i thought about just grabbing my notes, ignore my friends on the way and write in UP’s Sunken Garden after hours. Haven’t done it yet, though that may change soon.

The point here is, i need to write again. Why else am i studying php and html for if not for that new blog I’m putting up, and just in time for the forecast of my horrible horrible horrible 2006 Christmas? Why else, this sudden need to express? I feel that it is only through writing i can truly and honestly connect with anyone, and if that strikes you funny or prompts pity for me, stop yourself. We all have needs. This is mine.

The penwarrior is tired of waiting. Recent developments unwritten breed new conciousnesses in style, depth and wordplay - and it’s an exciting return i dearly anticipate.

While it is true that i may tire of it again, i trust it that i have material to last for months, and that should be enough coal to keep em coming.

Let it be clear then that this sudden need to feel again, to escape within springbound pages and building world with ink is on the grounds that it is a personal journey devoid of any need to be read or be commented on. Not many read what i write anyway, and those that do rarely care, and although in my personal life i need that kind of attention, here I do not. Come to think of it, the closure i need, the closure i’ve just decided on, is this: to express.

In my writing, whether it be this post, or the overdue resumption of Kros’ (or Kurt’s) journey into Haven, or the  musings of angry bitterness, let it be clear that this is not a cry for help or an arrogant display of rogue talent (or perhaps the lack of it),

                          Let my writes be understood
                          And since we are all humans with the limitless capacity to misinterpret, let my inksay be misunderstood, then,

 

                            as my life’s art.

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Back but in a Different Timezonee meantime

November 16th, 2006 by ktribal

n thA new blog is being put up. Details to follow, but then again be ready for jetlag.

In the meantime, this will still be my default rant and rave page. see ya

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Hello

August 12th, 2006 by ktribal

Hello non existent readers…Medyo matagal tagal na rin tong blog na to hindi naaupdate. Marami po kasing nangyayari sa buhay ko, and i really don’t have the time. Pero some pieces are already written and in the process of writing so sa pagbabalik ko, maraming post ang sasama. I will be taking the blog in a new direction, lately and ever since it has been so EMO - so karldramahans. well, surprise nalang kung anong magbabago.

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Stories Around Campus

July 13th, 2006 by ktribal

Off i go with random stories that can only be experienced firsthand…in UP Diliman.

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Karen Empeño and Sherlyn Cadapan.

Last July 7 2006, i regretted going out of Molave Residence Hall not wearing a red shirt. It was supposed to be a Red Shirt Day, says the University Student Council, to protest the kidnappings of two UP Students tagged as members of the New People’s Army. Naturally i don’t usually go with stuff like that, although i wore a red shirt on a Red Shirt Day during my freshman year, but that was just for going with the trend.

I happened to meet a groupmate at AS Lobby that day, and it so happened that there were members of Sigao-UP there, too. They were shouting on top of their lungs about the injustice of it all, and the cowardice of one fake president. Students were, of course, drawn to them, stopping to look at the tarps laid on the floor. One large poster bore Karen and Sherlyn’s faces along with the words KIDNAPPED; another poster counted off the murdered activists and journalists during GMA’s Dark Reign. As i looked along with others, i felt afraid for my fellow Iskolars. Who knows where they are now or what Palparan’s goons have have made them to become now? I’ve heard of things that happened during the onset of Matrial Law - disappearances, abductions of the worse kind, killings - and now the threats extend to students like us. GMA’s paranoia is scary. Studying in UP Diliman, i sort of expected to be near all the rackets and commotions between activists and political dog bites. But not like this. I fear to wait for the day when someone close to me finds himself/herself in Karen’s blindfolds and Sherlyn’s gags.

Dear Lord, we pray for them in our hearts, and now, even though fairly little, my voice goes out to them, joining  hundreds else that disapprove of this cowardice and inhumanity.

FREE KAREN AND SHERLYN!

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The New Collegian

Juan Paolo Colet and his staff are out of the picture, and lookie what thse exits brought in: an all new, all better Philippine Collegian! Changes were evident in the first issue alone, and this week’s  print is even better. Nice cover and spread arts, interesting stories, an intriguing comic section. It is something very UP, very Isko, very deserving of readership and admiration.

Thumbs up to the new staff!!!

You can check out all issues of the Collegian here :

http://kule0607.deviantart.com/

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The Germans In Front Of Palma Hall

Imagine this happening to you. Just imagine.

Your first baby killed by a fake widwife (apparently hired by your family).
Your boy, around 10 years old, raped by a 33 year old man in Taytay,kidnapped by rugby boys, sold and trafficked.
Your baby girl, around the same age, a hit and run victim.
You wife is forsaken and abused by her family, is ganged upon by the same family and barangay officials.
Your family abroad strips you and your father of inheritance and they leave you to strarve in a third world Asian country.
And starve you did. You had to beg around the campus of the country’s premier institution, where you graduated. You pick scraps below tables just to feed your family.
You are betrayed by ABS CBN, broadcasting lies and and inaccuracies to cover up your family’s misfortunes.
Even the Catholic Church does nothing but help increase your suffering. The preist and its officials betray you. They don’t even care.
Nobody wants to print or broadcast your story, even the Philippine Collegian doesn’t want it.
To top it all off, your wife finally gets beaten again by her family and the brgy officials, and because of a heart disease she’s carried since then, she dies.
You don’t even have her body. For all you know her family’s still using her to solicit from SSS and others. You just want to get her back and fulfill her wishes of cremation.
And still many still turn a deaf ear. There is no justice to those that could, that must give it.

Imagine all that happening to you.

It happened to one family. The Heimrach’s.

I saw Mr Joseph Heimrach this morning, dressed in a cotton shirt and a journalist’s vest, in dirty pants, and wearing slippers with socks that are tainted with mud. His daughter sits with him, a beautiful creature you wouldn’t think being hit and run over and the government refusing to charge the culprit. They sit on a bench in front of Palma Hall, and alid on the ground before them are posters of their pride and suffering, wet with rain and filthy with dust.

With a sorry heart i talked to Mr J. I asked him what i could do. Fresh from the Encounter with God Retreat, my heart told me something should be done. I’ve read their story (they had handouts, but could not afford to give them away because they had no more xerox.) He told me about what had happened to them, to their kids, how his family stripped him of 250 million worth of German currency and leaving them to starve. How the Philippine government made fun of him and told him

Joe, you have no rights in this country.

How his wife’s family got it all and never stopped until they killed a part of them. How he almost lost his son and his daughter. How he lost his wife.

He spoke to me in English, his german accent there but barely conspicuous. He saw through my affection and said words i could not understand coming from a man who’s life had been so destroyed and trodden.

Do not feel bad for us, do not fear.
Go away from here and be proud of my wife. She needs to go places. Put it on the internet, tell anyone you can.
I normally do not fight for Filipinas, but she was a Filipina wife, and that’s different. That’s why I’m here, so that people will know about her strength. She’s truly a Filipina who we can be proud of. Her only fault was loving me. She died a Christian.

I walked away with a handshake and a smile from MR J. But i was sad, and here i am, hoping to tell you more. I ask that we pray for these people, that they may recieve justice even while they are here on earth, for surely the judgment reserved for their oppressors are waiting. May we pray for their providence and strength, for now they rely on students who pay for their rent, who give them food and moral support. Write to people you know who has the courage to print such stories. I for one am writing to Reader’s Digest. But we know something more must be done. They are good people. And they need help, so let us give them that.

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The Encounter (A Very Short Testimony)

July 10th, 2006 by ktribal

My Life changed on July 7 8 9.

Because God was there, and He

Burned me.
Consumed me.
Let me speak.
Let me hear.
Saved me.
Loved me.
Changed me.
Freed me.
Burned me.
Consumed me.
Let me speak.
Let me hear.
Saved me.
Loved me.
Changed me.
Burned me.
Consumed me.
Let me speak.
Let me hear.
Saved me.
Loved me.
Changed me.
Freed me.
Burned me.
Consumed me.
Let me speak.
Let me hear.
Saved me.
Loved me.
Changed me.
Freed me.

Burned me.Consumed me.Let me speak.Let me hear.Saved me.Loved me.Changed me.

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A Declination of an Invitation

June 19th, 2006 by ktribal

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This is my response to an email sent to our First Floor Boys yahoogroup. These are the contents of the letter, sent June 19, 2006, 7:13pm.

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pipz, 2nd yr na tayo.. and i am inviting you to join in the frat i
am into. you see, everything changed when i joined. dont just
comment about frat violence for you dont know what is it to be
inside one. masaya rito. ask *****. ask me. look at me. pipol dont
live alone. see your friends. feel them. they may be hir for now.
sooner, gone. life is a matter of choices. life is not a matter of
loneliness. you need help? we’re here. we’re always here. contact
me, 090650******…***

feel nyo b mahirap?? ahuhuhuhuh.. look at me, isang katulad ko ba
palagay nyo papasa sa ganun??? duhhh!!! maliitin daw b ko..
blehhhh!!!


(oi convincing power… join na… brod ***** sori for including ur
name… pipz, 2nd yr na tau… God bless sa studies ;p)

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names and certain information withheld. for privacy reasons.

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this was my reply.

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i think i’ll pass on the invitation.

ang sinasabi ko lang(at nasabi rin sa post)  e mayroon pa rin naman talaga tayo choices. if you feel you’ll be happy in a frat, then by all means, go. if you think your friends’ll desert you by the time you lose your money or by the time you graduate from college and you think frat brothers won’t, it’s up to you if you take up on their offer.

my stand is, real brothers can also be found outside frats. i for one have found many. and

there’s harold, andrew, tristan, dreo, ken, eli, lennen, nikki, jay ar, tim, jodacks and most of the first floor boys. kahit nga si kuya wads.
we from starwads have found brothers during our stay in kalai. in my view we left kalai as a brotherhood. not only united in name and purpose, but also in heart and friendship (kung corny, titigil na ako)

although, hindi nga naman masama sumali sa fraternity dahil may benefits rin nga naman siya, especially pagkatapos natin ng pag aaral.

pero, kahit hindi ako nasa loob ng frat at hindi ko alam ang buong takbo ng gulong sa loob ng mga ito…im sure marami na tayong nabalitaan about hazing victims and death, frat wars (hindi ba may members ng frat na inassault sa may yakal last year?) right here sa campus natin at sa labas. para sa isang outsider, enough na na reason yun para matakot. kung yung news na nakakarating sa atin eh biased sa view na violent ang frats against each other and frat violence isn’t what the news makes it out to be, ayaw ko nang i risk yung sarili ko.

so ngayon, meron tayong exfloormate na nanghihikayat na sumali kayo sa frat nila. as in all cases of decision, it’s up to you.

basta ako, i have my stand, and its right here, in the company of friends and brothers who’ve proven themselves through initiations of the deeper heart. kung mawawala man sila sa buhay ko

"they may be hir for now… sooner, gone."

its a risk that i’m much more willing to take, and i think, a risk that will be more rewarding.

nel said that life is a matter of choices and not of loneliness, and i totally agree. that’s why in this life, we choose who we invest into, we choose who we call friends, we choose who we love. when i read nel’s post i faced the choice and made it.

i have friends and brothers in and outside the jedi community.
i have a family.
i have a church.
i have a God.

And they are more than enough for me. i have found them, for God has led me to them. They are more than enough. I am overwhelmed with gratitude for them alone.

I do not write this because Nel and I are enemies,

but because this is where i stand.

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